So many new changes....

One of the many changes that has happened to our family is the physical changes. At times, I feel as though these have been the hardest to deal with. 

After my husband's accident, he had to come to the realization that he was not 100% anymore. That was and is something that we are working on...although he is not completely disabled, he is limited at what he can do.

We are still navigating this roller coaster and hope the roughest part is behind us. My husband has had to navigate being told he cannot go hard at 100%...to slow down. But how does he process this...it is like being hit in the gut because he fears for how he will provide for his family.

Another change since the accident is his mental capacity...this was definitely new territory for him. I try to be supportive and helpful with my tools that I use to get through the hard times. But I myself struggle with my own issues...I won't lie this has been a rough ride and there were times where I wanted to give up.😭

I had to keep praying that I would not let my insecurities get in the way of his healing...his learning of how to navigate this new life of emotions. This ride is going to be an ongoing one but a hopeful one...we still have our rough days but with diligent prayers we have developed a better line of communication. 

Once the wave subsides another one comes...I did not want to believe my body is aging but it is. My Rheumatoid Arthritis has some limitations and if I can keep moving I will keep moving. But there are days when it feels like my body is covered in a mountain of bricks. None of my joints want to move and they are swollen. It tingles but itches and aches all at the same time.😟

More doctors, x-rays and meds....ughhhh!! I want to do things but the fatigue just floors me some days. My heart, head and body just feels like it cannot take much more. It can feel hopeless at times.

Is it wrong to have these emotions? Of course not....just don't stay there.  

It is important to talk about how you feel....whatever way gets you through it. Whether it is talking to yourself(write it down), a therapist, a priest, a good friend/family member, church family, your pastor or lifting it up in prayer. 

Keep moving forward...you can and will get through whatever wave you're facing. 

Psalms 31:24 - Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the LORD.