Today was a breaking point for me...the ordeal of trying to buy a house is frustrating and very emotionally draining is you are not truly prepared to start down the path.
Although options have been placed in front of us...we keep running into a brick wall because we are just not financially ready to do the things we want. We keep hearing that they can still help us get this done even though are assets are lower than desired.
It has been very frustrating being tossed back and forth between agents and repeating ourselves numerous times over...only to be told that I was being rude for asking questions and stating that moving on could be detrimental to us being able to meet our deadline for finding a place to move to.
Our circumstances are unfortunately on a deadline and it is starting to worry us that we will have nowhere to go when the time comes. I was so upset when I was told that I was rude in my email that just stated point blank...it feels like this is not proceeding as quickly as we had hoped. Especially when we were having to repeat our situation with every new phone call we got from them. Excuse me for freaking out about the thought of not having a roof to put over my sons head.
Of course I broke down and cried because that is what happens when I am confronted with any kind of emotion. It was my breaking point and I let this guy know it...in my head I was just telling myself to breathe and calm down. Handle the situation like an adult and move on to the next obstacle...I have a little boy counting on me to do the right thing and never give up!
Gratefully I have an amazing partner in life, I let him know what was going on and we talked about everything and our options. We got on the same page about things and have a fresh brain to tackle the bumps ahead. I cannot express enough how important communication and a cleansing cry can help with the rough patches in any relationship. I felt so much better afterwards and realized that we can take on anything as long as we do it together!!

I have fallen down so hard I thought I would never be able to get back up again. I have lost everything that meant the world to me and felt like dying. I thought I would never feel whole again or be able to live life with a little joy in it. God never gave up on me thankfully....even though I cursed him many times. Recovery, happiness, joy, family etc....all these are possible with work, forgiveness, acceptance and faith.
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